Stay Tuned

Hi All!

 

Ideally, this post will be so buried by my many many other posts (here's to manifesting) that no one will actually see this post. However, if you do, congrats! You get a little update about where I'm at right now, which maybe, hopefully, is a starting place for things to come:

 

Right now, I am finishing up my second term of grad school at Portland State, where I study conservation science (in the chemistry department). So far it has felt like... a slow start. A lot of self-drive and independence is expected of me, which I didn't expect to this degree. And I've always known that I can struggle at self-motivating. I don't think many people would put that description onto me, but it feels true. Maybe it's just my reference point, who knows. I may dropout, who knows.

 

I'm not really making art right now either. I've been doing a touch of sewing. that's about it. I wish I did more making. I do a lot of consuming and definitely some thinking. I have a lot of ideas I want to write about and create. but doing them is tricky. This is all at a point where I feel like my mental health is as good as it's ever been so I can't super blame that for this. More something along the lines of I'm uncertain if anything means anything so I don't feel the external desire to do things, but I haven’t gotten over this enough to just accept it and be happy and silly and do whatever I want to do instead of feeling frozen. Who knows, maybe I just want a life of consumption. Maybe that's fine. 

 

But I guess we will try to make and see how that goes. Just trying to give myself as much access as possible to do that, you know? Taking two writing/communication classes next term. Hopefully that writing will be posted up here. 

 

Here's to dreaming and ideas and change.

 

K